a ride with a stranger 🍁

     

 

       The title is quite interesting, isn't it? Well maybe it is. I don't think anyone is reading my blog now-a-days, but I don't care about who reads what reads. I love to write, so I'll keep writing more and more. Okay, so the topic "ride with a stranger" actually has to do nothing with the stranger. We were not strangers, but I met him for the very first time and maybe the last time. You can think he was a relative, but I didn't know anything about him. I've just heard my aunt mentioning his name earlier. So basically it's a very complex connection, which I can't describe now. Let's just think he's a stranger. He was older than me, maybe 10 years older. Let me tell you I don't remember his face, but now while writing this and trying to remember how he looks like, I could relate him with my maths teacher, lol.  I think he has a job, so that he doesn't belong to our city now. I could think this because of his way of driving his motorcycle. I don't know how expensive it was. I don't even know which model it was as I'm not at all interested in vehicles. He was driving fast, very fast, faster than my father.  His driving was thrilling me. The speed was high as the streets were lonely at that time. He had a branded phone, which I think was cheaper than mine. But still, he seemed rich to me. Anyways, it doesn't matter how rich he was, or how his appearance was. I was tired of the hectic day I had, which I don't know why it was. But I was feeling tired. So after I returned to home after school, I took a long nap, which was supposed to be a short one. And then when I woke up, we had to go to this reception party of a relative. Uff.. I just don't understand the relation with these relatives, who became relative without any direct relation. I was still feeling tired after 3 hours of sleep, so I was thinking to cancel the plan for me. But somehow, I got ready and went to this venue, which was quite away from the city. After the horrible food I had, actually I was supposed to have, but fortunately I didn't, we had to return home. And then, I was introduced to him and he was asked to drop me at my home as he was going in the same direction. Because of my fatigue, I agreed with my aunt and joined him on his motorcycle, just to reach home early. It was a journey of 15-20 minutes. At first I was feeling awkward, the same kind of awkwardness, which I always feel when I meet new people. I don't know why, but I just can't talk with someone new initially. If they start it, I can talk without any problems. So he didn't say anything to me, because he was more focused on his fast driving, which literally brought water in my eyes. Hey!  I wasn't crying, even though I wanted to because of the negative thoughts I was having then. It just happened because it was cold. When it's cold and someone is driving very fast, I just get watery eye, I don't know why. What I was thinking is that how my daily life is becoming boring. I wanted my days to be different form one another, but now everyday is same. Is it because I'm more focused on studies ? Is it because I have changed my routine ? Is it because I'm not the old Pran, that I used to be, who was sleeping all the day, was not caring about studies and not going to school ? What's the reason ? Am I doing wrong ? My heart says "No". Then why everything is wrong with me ? Why do I have to deal with the same loneliness I had ? I call and I don't get to talk to anyone. No one picks up the call. Okay, maybe they are busy, but they can reply back with something like "I'm currently busy" or "I'll call you later". But no, they just disappear for days, and keep thinking that I'm not taking initiatives to contact with them. I just wanted my schedule to be changed, not the people I had. It hurts so much when you see your efforts turning into negative impacts on you regarding to the failure and the factors of failure as well. In simple words, "It hurts when people keep demotivating you despite all of your efforts. "

        Soon, we entered into the city, and I realized it when the streets started to look a bit crowdy. I was lost in myself for like 10 minutes, doing nothing but overthinking as usual. He had been on a phone call while driving since I don't know how long. He was talking about leaving the city the next day. When we came closer to my house, he cut the call and slowed his driving. Before that we had overtaken a truck, which had made me scared. There was a crowd on the street near my house. He said something about alcohol and drunk people,  but I didn't understand anything. And when we reached my destination, I jumped and went inside, without saying anything. So it was the end of the awkwardness. Maybe I should have said a "thank you". 

        Anyways that's it. It is the end of this post. I was glad that I returned earlier than the rest of my family members. I'm trying to sleep now. Will see you later.

        

                                         Love, Pran

73 Questions with Me

    It's 18th of January 2020 and the time is 23.58. I'm answering 73 questions and by the time it will be finished, it will be 19th of January. I'd like to thank VOUGE for this theme. It's an amazing way to express and know myself better. So let's get started :

1 - Favorite place to be

   A cozy room in a cool place like a hill station

2 - Something you can never live without ?

   It may sound crazy but I can't live without a phone now. Because I have every details of my life in it, which I can't lose.

3 -  Hobbies that you'll never give up? 

    I can never stop writing . Writing is the way I express myself and it's the most pleasant hobby that I have.

4 - Three words to describe yourself ?

    Optimistic, Awkward and Shy

5 - your Biggest fear ?

    Being homeless and alone in an unknown place

6 - What makes you angry ?

  TBH, nothing screws me up more than following a trend blindly. And yes I absolutely don't adore politics

7 - Your inspiration ?

   Usually, I get inspired easily. Everything I come across which I like, inspires me in some ways. 

8 - Favorite wild animal and why ? 

   I am not sure if Rabbit is a wild animal or not. But if it is, then Rabbit is my favorite animal. Reason - "how can I just not love such cuties !"

9 - Favorite food ?

     It actually depends on my mood and situation. But I'll go with Manchurian for now as it's my current favorite. And everyone knows it 😅

10 - First memory of life ?

   Naah. Can't say anything . When I start to think about my early life, thousands of memories come across my mind. So it gets hard to choose which one is the first. 

11 - The best advice you got  ?

  "Practice makes perfect!" - that's 1000% true.

12 - Where do you see yourself in 10 years ?

   

    I definitely don't see myself in the town I am right now. Just somewhere far away from this place.

13 - Book reading these days ?

    Oh yeah!  I'm reading "Dear Stranger, I Know How You Feel" by Ashish Bagrecha and it's quite soothing. Well it's the first English book I'm reading.

14 - The fictional character you want to be ? 

    I want to be.....  I don't know. I want to be someone like Merida from the Brave and also someone like Nobita from Doraemon. I don't know... I don't really watch a lot of fictions. 

15 - Your hidden talent ?

      Hidden talent ? I think my talents are clearly visible to the people who know me well. But still if you ask me for a hidden talent, that no-one knows is that I can dance a little. But I'm never gonna dance if you ask me to dance. 

16 - Favorite type of music ?

     I don't know the meaning of different genres of the music. I know the genres but I don't know what they are. But I like to listen to calm, romantic, slow songs which I listen after midnight. And I also love Arabic Instrumental Music. Actually I can't answer this one properly, because selection of music always depends on my mood.

17 - When do you feel happy ?

  When I listen to songs, or when I write, when I watch something creative, or when I'm talking to the people I love, I feel very happy. Even sometimes, I talk to myself and it sounds crazy but it feels really satisfying.

18 -  which song would you like to hear to be happy ?

    'Fight Song' by Rachel Platten. It fills me up with positivity. 

19 -  Favorite word in English ?

    It's too difficult to select one favorite word in a language. 'Bibliophile' is a nice one and so is 'introvert'. I'm not saying that these are my favorite words. I just ... I don't know ... They are pleasant to hear. 

20 - Any other language that you can speak ?

 

  Of course. I can speak Hindi, which is the National language of India. And yes Urdu, which is very similar to Hindi. And my mother tongue 'Oriya'. There are actually two types of Oriya and I can speak both of them.

21 - top 3 things in your bucket list ?

    Having Apple products, travelling to my dream places and gaining good experience

22 - the most heard song in 2019 ?

      There are so many. It's hard to choose one. I don't count which song I have listened to the most.

23 - Last book that you've read ? 

      I don't remember the last book I read before the one I'm reading currently.

24 - Favorite quote ?

     There are so many.  It's very hard to recall. This one is one of my favorite

"Your peace is more important than driving yourself crazy trying to understand why something happened the way it did. Let it go." 
                                        - Jay Shetty

25 - if you had a super power, what would it be? 

   Being invisible 

26- favorite sport ?

       😅 I wish I was interested in sports. But still I like to play badminton.

27 - biggest dream ?

       Traveling around the world

28 - favorite singer ?

       Jass Manak 😍

29 - favorite cuisine ?

       I don't know properly about cuisines. So can't tell right now. 

30 - A positive quality about you ?

      I stay confused all the time but when I fix something, that means that's gonna happen for sure. 

31 - A negative quality about you  ?

      Getting attached with people and trusting them easily

32 - best place you've ever visited ?

    Ooty, Tamil Nadu, India. Just google it if you wanna know why it's the best place for me so far

33 - when do you laugh the most ?

     When I'm with my cousins, we have a lot of fun and I laugh a lot with them and yes with my best friend too. 

34 - when do you get creative ?

      Right after watching a show or movie or a video maybe

35 - favorite lyrics  ?

    Oh!  There are a lot in hindi, urdu and also in Punjabi And English. This one was actually true "I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter"

36 - the scariest  thing you've ever done ?

     Oh my God! So one evening, I was hanging out with one of my friend away from the citylights. It was dark and cold outside there. And I think it was a hilly area very close to my city. We were talking in peace and when we were about to go, two men in police uniform, came there and I was super scared. I thought we were gonna get arrested and it was so scary. Just think we were two 16 years old teenagers, away from the city in that lonely place and it was dark, I could barely see anything. And two police guys suddenly appeared with big guns like AKM. It was an experience and it was one of the most scariest thing I've ever done. Luckily they didn't interact with us and we just left that place.

37 - biggest accomplished achievement so far ?

  Getting A1 in the 10th standard is actually a big achievement for me. Because my family members know how I was studying for it. I barely touched any books for the half of the year. My attendance in school was very poor. But I studied for the exams in the last 4 months and I was overjoyed when the result came out.

38 - what are you horrible at ?

    Sports 😅 (everyone knows) 

39 - favorite book genres  ?

      Romance, fantasy and philosophy 

40 - any adventurous thing you want to do ?

      I would like to see a volcano or maybe I could go for an African jungle safari 😅 

41 - something you would like to try  ?

      I want to open a fashion house and yes make a series

42 - Optimistic or pessimistic ?

      Optimistic. Because I like to be positive. Sometimes, thinking negative can stop you from doing what you like

43 - Favourite TV show host ?

      Jimmy Fallon and Ellen DeGeneres . Both of them are adorable 

44 - a talent that you want to acquire  ?

    Playing an instrument (more specifically Guitar)

45 - something from your childhood that you still have ?

      Oh yes ! I have all of my diaries that I've written in my childhood till now. And I'm never throwing them. Because I love them. When I feel down, I just open an old diary and start reading it. It would make me giggle that how I foolish I used to be in my childhood !

46 - if you had a chance to change something, what would it be ?

     Eradicate abuse and violence.. And also some people's sick mentality

47 - what would you do to calm yourself ?

    I would write down what's making me upset or I would try to sleep or do something which can distract me to a positive note 

48 - when do you find yourself singing  ?

     Basically all the time ! Just kidding. In bathroom, while listening to music, while writing notes and yes, in the school bus 

49 - what do you consider unforgivable ?

    Killing someone

50 - have you ever sleep-walked ?

    No!  Never. I don't sleep-walk. And I don't even talk in sleep. That's funny for me

51 - If you get a chance to go anywhere, where would it be ?

     I have a wish to see the aurora(northen lights). So I'd like to go to a polar country like Norway or Finland

52 -  what is your dream career ?

    I don't know. Still figuring out.

53 - an impossible wish ?

    To be invisible or to have a Doraemon

54 - who is your greatest role model ?

   🤷‍♂  I don't really have a role model 

55 - if you could live in any house that is shown in a movie or show, which one would it be ?

     The house shown in "Call Me By Your Name" has my heart and so does the movie

56 - favorite song currently  ?

    "Dhokha" by Jass Manak

57 -  advice to people  ?

      Don't think about unnecessary things that distracts you from your path of achieving your goals. Just ignore the negativity and stay under protection of positive vibes

58 - which are some of your travel destinations ?

    Amalfi Coast, Paris, London, Istanbul, Riyadh, Tokyo, Rio de Janeiro, New-York and LA ... And Toronto for sure 🤦‍♂

59 - Describe your style 

     Do I have a style ? I love fashion but I don't have a style I guess.

60 - favorite makeup product ?

      "It's not a question for a boy" - that's what the society thinks. But I know how to do makeup. And my favorite makeup product is "eyeshadow" or maybe "foundation" "concealer" "mascara" "highlighter" ....ughh everything 😅

61 - what's the guilty pleasure you have ?

    Late night long talk is my guilty pleasure. I think "I should have slept earlier" when I wake up in the morning. But it's okay. Because pleasure comes first. And yes this year I'll be having less pleasure 

62 - who is your favorite Game of Thrones character ?

    Olenna Tyrell 🖤

63 - any pet peeves ?

     Yeah, A lot. But when someone drags something, causing a very unbearable sound... It's so annoying that I would like to throw my things at him

64 - if you could die your hair, what color would it be  ?

    I wanna try every color which is in trend.

65 - what's your schedule these days?

   Waking up early in the morning, going to school, coming back, taking a nap, studying and studying ..then learning French for an hour and then sleeping.. I'm very busy now-a-days 

66 - Have you ever cut your own hair ?

    Yes. When I was 6, I watched Mr. Bean cutting his hair and I tried to do the same 😅

67 - who's your style icon  ?

     I don't know.  I love Sonam Kapoor, Priyanka Chopra, Rohit Khandedwal and all those actors and models who influence the fashion industry. But style icon ? I don't have any. 

68 - do you consider yourself as a good liar ?

        Indeed I am a good liar 🙃

69 - favorite movies as a child  ?

    I used to watch the Tom and Jerry movies, Disney Mulan, Snow White, Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast, Little Mermaid, Tangled, Doraemon's movies, Shin Chan's movies and yes Barbie Movies were my favorite 🤩 I don't know how you would  feel but Barbie movies are great, they are entertaining. And stories of these movies are fantastic.

70 - Last show you've binge watched ?

   MTV's Awkward 

71 - First toy that you had

  I don't remember anything about my toys. All that I remember is that I had a teddy and some cars and even dolls😂

72 - What can you see from your window ?

    Wall of my neighbour's house

73 - what would be the most important thing you'd do tomorrow  ?

   Eat something tasty

   That's it. It was a pleasure sharing these things here. Thank you and Good Night. 

   

                                            Love, Pran

a bit sassy✨

They - "You can't understand."

Me - "oh okay" 🙂 

*Inside me heart* - "not even interested to understand"

    Hello lovelies. I'm here after a very amazing time. My first week of this year was amazing. I didn't think too much about people. I focused on my studies and school and studies and school 🥰... Well you see I've moved on.. I don't care about fake persons anymore even if I'm still talking to them. I've lost my caring nature in 2019. I learned "the more you care, the more they'll try to break".. So don't even try to care for people who are trying to break you and throw your care for them in their mean ocean of fake relation ... No, not relation, something like relation. So I focused on myself. I have improved my French a bit. Now I can introduce myself and I know how to use the French alphabet and their pronunciation, which is by the way very exhausting. They write what they don't pronounce and they pronounce what they don't write. And I love the sound of "je".

       

          So coming back to the first line, some people said, "You are changed.  You can't understand." 

- "Oh dear! What an awkward situation !" (*Maleficent trying to laugh*) 

Well when I needed you, and you weren't there, what should have I done? I cannot wait for you outside your chamber of real friends partying inside. So I moved on. And found new ones. Trust me, I wanted to understand back then. But not anymore. I don't even have interest left in me to understand your words. Because I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of not being myself, although I am master at giving fake smile and showing fake interest. So I don't see any judiciousness if you wanna hang on to my shadow talking to you without any interest. Well you didn't say that you weren't interested...  So I am gonna do the same. Darling, please move on without letting me tell you to Move on. Everything is okay without you and trust me I don't want any chaos again. My life is finally on a track. I can't invite distractions for a feast again, a feast of awful tea. (Sorry tea lovers, no offense but I hate tea)... I think you can see what's karma now.. No you can not see, you'll feel it. You'll feel the same way I had felt. Be prepared. What goes around comes around. Hahah👻

        Ufffff.... I had a phone call and my mind is completely changed now in a good way. I'm delighted  and sleepy. Anyways nothing more today.  Will talk about it later.  Gud night 🖤

 

                                             Love, Pran

(this was just for a single person.. Don't think it's for everyone)🤓

Bonne Année 2020✨

Hey there ! Happy New Year to all.. I have decided to post something everyday or maybe weekly. So this is my first blog post for of 2020. 

         Bonne annèe ! Bonjur et bienvenue ! Je m'appelle Pran. Je suis Indien. Je parle anglais et hindi. J'ai 16 ans. Et Je vous aime tous 🖤

   Hahah!  That's French. Well I've started my new year in a very new way from my heart. 2019 was an eye-opening year for me. It was entertaining but it was  one of the worst years of my lifetime. So this year, I celebrated the arrival of January 2020 with my cousins and best-friend. I was super excited to start something new. So I decided to learn French. Now I've wasted one year already and I'm not gonna do the same. I'll study hard for the boards. So that I'll get a good grade but not so good 😅. Well I think I have a goal now, for which I can live. This year is gonna stay away from negative distractions. I'm so excited for the life I'll have. Félicitations ! I have overcome 2019 and now I'll be great in 2020. I have a strong determination now. "Bonne chance" to me. May my dreams come true. 

         I'm grateful for every horrible things that happened in 2019. I don't regret now. Alhamdulillah I'm healthy and breathing well in His nature's lap. I'm grateful for the lovelies I have in my life. I'm so much grateful to you and je vous aime tous!  I love you all. Thanks for being with me when I was even failing to be with me. I'm grateful to myself I've survived but now I'll live. À bientôt ! See you soon... 

  (that's Paris and "Paris ! Je t'aime"🇨🇵)