Realization 😇

BACK AGAIN

                 

       Okay.. Bismillah. I'm here again. So it's been 3 days. I did realize a lot of things. First thing I realized was that I have to concentrate on my studies or I will end up getting a really poor grade. But before that I missed another day of school, I really have forgotten about the reason of my leave. Anyways on that day, I kept doing my research on NIFT (my current aim). Actually I keep doing this research whenever I get some kind of free time, which is very rare to get now a days. Maybe I'm being a bit of impatient about it or maybe I'm not getting satisfying results from my research about NIFT. Because NIFT is a very new and strange thing in a small town, where I live. Here people don't have enough ideas about modern age career options. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's what I've felt. Because I don't have someone who can always clear my doubts and solve my questions about my career in NIFT. People must think without any limits. People's thinking in a small town can be very limited. And I think it's very limited in my town. "If someone takes the Science stream, that means he should be an engineer or a doctor" - this is the common mentality that people have in my so called school. Maybe I'm wrong with this thing also (I wish I am), but as I said, this is what I have felt. I hope I'll get answers of my questions about my career. So it was the second thing I have realized.
           
           The Monday was actually boring. I spent my entire day on my phone. I don't know why but I can't stop getting attached to my phone. Trust me I've tried so hard and I'm still trying, but I always end up with the same thing. So this is the next thing I've realized. Maybe mobile  is my weakness and I'm so addicted to it. I must stop it. Everyone gives great advices on this topic. But I know how hard it is to stay away. In this way, I really killed my day. (this keeps happening and it's not a good thing)
 

          

      So the next day, I had to attend classes anyhow. But unfortunately my entire day was again murdered by an annoying human being. I had to sit with the most irritating boy of our class (claps for me). I was so focused on my study stuff. But there is always consequences of your noble deed. And my noble deed was missing the previous classes. So it was a bit hard to capture things with the regular speed. And it became more difficult because of that boy. Oh God! He is horrible and dangerous for every student. He never stops speaking and asking annoying questions. Just because I know Urdu, he literally ordered me to write his name and also his each and every family member and relatives. No one was even ready to change seats. So the whole day was very irritating and Ughh... I can't describe about it anymore. Wish me best of luck if I would ever have to sit with him again. So I realized stay way from such people as far as possible 🤯. When I returned, I did the same thing. Started my research again and ended it on 9pm. Wasted the evening (again claps for me). 

  

     

     Next thing I realized is that people get people and people lose people. Be careful about that. Not in a mood to describe this matter. There's no need even. This is the truth. So I was late for my school next day. And I found my classmates asking me "Hey! Your friend is present today! " repeatedly,  just like they are making fun. I really can't understand what that means, even now. The friend they were referring to was my friend, but we have stopped talking to each other. I can't even remember the last time I asked him something or told him anything. And from where this thing came from,  I don't even have to find out. I seriously don't care about that boy anymore. We're done. There was friendship or something else, only he knows and I'm never gonna ask him. Because I've stopped caring. On this day,  thank God I didn't have to sit with that boy again. So I did focus on my studies well. Then I really had a good conversation with some friends. Still some classmates kept bothering me as they were telling the same thing repeatedly. But as I said "I don't care". I studied Chemistry in the evening because I got to know that there's gonna be a Chemistry test soon. And yeah this is the end of the day. Thanks for reading. Gud night ❤
                    
                                                      Love, Pran

Today's Love

Do you ever think of being in depression instead of being in love? Think before you feel love for someone :-)

     As someone has said, "Love is a poison, a sweet poison but it will kill you the same " Try falling in love with someone, try your best to give your relationship a one hundred percent, let your ego get crushed in that love, let yourself lose the real you, let everything else in this world sink

in the sea of love, even let yourself lie with you for love, let yourself fight. Well,  it doesn't matter how hard you'll try or what consequences you'll have to face, in the end you have to lose in this war. No-one is gonna win even. Because the war was between you and your conscience.

Beginning

Day : 1

 (oh well.. Very first post..lol) 

         

        It was 21st of July 2019. A Sunday. I don't really wake up early (before 7) on Sundays. But there was a test in my school. I didn't even touch any study materials. But that doesn't matter. A test is a test. We have to face it , maybe with courage and confidence, which I wasn't lacking today. I know how horrible Maths can be (not for nerd math lovers) and I guess most of the students are aware of it. So the test was about Logarithm, about which I didn't even know a single thing. All that I knew was the word log. So I decided to do nothing and just  to select one answer randomly. Thank God it was a multiple choice test. Everyone in my class was really very much confident about the test, that they can secure good numbers (Super Nerds). So that one and half hours were the most painful and tragic hours for me today. Anyway somehow the exam was over and I got some kind of peace. When I came back to my place, I was starving but unfortunately there was no my type of food ,so that I could get more peace. I can't even describe what is my kind of food, lol. Then it was a completely normal day. I did nothing extraordinary. Then it was another boring evening. Oh I forgot to mention about a Chicken Dinner, I got in PUBG after a long time 😍. So That moment was something which I can't express now. Because it's very rare for me to get a win in PUBG being the MVP (most valuable player). Okay enough of Pubg. This match got me into a trouble. One of my teammate (maybe a friend) was upset with me because I couldn't help him in the match and he died. Well it was not the first time. I can't even count how many times he has done this and how many times I have considered this. Isn't it very immature? Not the consideration,  it's his thinking, which is very immature. There's alot of kind of people I have in my life, we all have. Some of them are right for us and some aren't. Then I watched the rest part of the movie (actually the whole movie) called "Mirror Mirror", which is an inspired version of Disney's "Snow-White and the Seven Dwarfs", I liked it very much. It's funny, entertaining and worth watching (for me). Most of the things I like, are the things which people don't like (mostly). But I don't care what these people like or not. Everyone has his own likes and dislikes and so do I. Why should I like the things people like. Anyways, then time flew by so fast and it was night. I mean this is night. And I have to say Good Night.

        Ha ha ha.. I'm done with my first post, lol. Weird, isn't it? Never mind. Everything here is somehow weird. I don't even know why I wrote these things here. I have created this page a week ago (maybe 2 weeks). But I'm posting this today. Okay...I'm so tired today (that's an everyday thing)...no further writing for today. 

       Good night. ❤ Let's see when I'll be writing next post. 

                                                          ❤ Pran