Realization 😇

BACK AGAIN

                 

       Okay.. Bismillah. I'm here again. So it's been 3 days. I did realize a lot of things. First thing I realized was that I have to concentrate on my studies or I will end up getting a really poor grade. But before that I missed another day of school, I really have forgotten about the reason of my leave. Anyways on that day, I kept doing my research on NIFT (my current aim). Actually I keep doing this research whenever I get some kind of free time, which is very rare to get now a days. Maybe I'm being a bit of impatient about it or maybe I'm not getting satisfying results from my research about NIFT. Because NIFT is a very new and strange thing in a small town, where I live. Here people don't have enough ideas about modern age career options. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's what I've felt. Because I don't have someone who can always clear my doubts and solve my questions about my career in NIFT. People must think without any limits. People's thinking in a small town can be very limited. And I think it's very limited in my town. "If someone takes the Science stream, that means he should be an engineer or a doctor" - this is the common mentality that people have in my so called school. Maybe I'm wrong with this thing also (I wish I am), but as I said, this is what I have felt. I hope I'll get answers of my questions about my career. So it was the second thing I have realized.
           
           The Monday was actually boring. I spent my entire day on my phone. I don't know why but I can't stop getting attached to my phone. Trust me I've tried so hard and I'm still trying, but I always end up with the same thing. So this is the next thing I've realized. Maybe mobile  is my weakness and I'm so addicted to it. I must stop it. Everyone gives great advices on this topic. But I know how hard it is to stay away. In this way, I really killed my day. (this keeps happening and it's not a good thing)
 

          

      So the next day, I had to attend classes anyhow. But unfortunately my entire day was again murdered by an annoying human being. I had to sit with the most irritating boy of our class (claps for me). I was so focused on my study stuff. But there is always consequences of your noble deed. And my noble deed was missing the previous classes. So it was a bit hard to capture things with the regular speed. And it became more difficult because of that boy. Oh God! He is horrible and dangerous for every student. He never stops speaking and asking annoying questions. Just because I know Urdu, he literally ordered me to write his name and also his each and every family member and relatives. No one was even ready to change seats. So the whole day was very irritating and Ughh... I can't describe about it anymore. Wish me best of luck if I would ever have to sit with him again. So I realized stay way from such people as far as possible 🤯. When I returned, I did the same thing. Started my research again and ended it on 9pm. Wasted the evening (again claps for me). 

  

     

     Next thing I realized is that people get people and people lose people. Be careful about that. Not in a mood to describe this matter. There's no need even. This is the truth. So I was late for my school next day. And I found my classmates asking me "Hey! Your friend is present today! " repeatedly,  just like they are making fun. I really can't understand what that means, even now. The friend they were referring to was my friend, but we have stopped talking to each other. I can't even remember the last time I asked him something or told him anything. And from where this thing came from,  I don't even have to find out. I seriously don't care about that boy anymore. We're done. There was friendship or something else, only he knows and I'm never gonna ask him. Because I've stopped caring. On this day,  thank God I didn't have to sit with that boy again. So I did focus on my studies well. Then I really had a good conversation with some friends. Still some classmates kept bothering me as they were telling the same thing repeatedly. But as I said "I don't care". I studied Chemistry in the evening because I got to know that there's gonna be a Chemistry test soon. And yeah this is the end of the day. Thanks for reading. Gud night ❤
                    
                                                      Love, Pran