generation, bro!

     Hey, Myself! I know you're absolutely lazy and kinda weird and asleep. So, here I am.. To open up your eyes or maybe to give you a piece of mind.. I know your eyes are open and moving well, and I'm glad that it is how it is. But you're sleeping. Your eyes don't even know what they are going through. It's too hard, I know. It's always been too hard for us. Being a teenager these days sometimes makes you feel like dying. This generation is sad, troubled and all those stuff. But is it really how it is? Let's see.

       Let's consider you as a happy person. No, I mean they're sad, so happy is someone who must be completely opposite to them. Sad people are always sad, so happies must be happy all the time. Sad people cry, happy people must be laughing, they can't cry. Sad people rarely talk, happy people must be blabbering all the time then. Happy people are always in a mood for everything, then sad people mustn't even having  any of those moods. Oh! How sad ! It's quite a bit odd, isn't it ?

     We are what we are. We are humans. You are a human. But you think yourself as a human with an adjective. There's no need. You cry, that doesn't mean you can't smile. You laugh, that doesn't mean you can't cry. You are slow, that doesn't mean you can't be fast. But you're human, and that means you can't be a bird, unless you're a witch or some kind of magician. It's okay. You'll be sad and you have to be. Only then, you'd be able to get the real happiness. You're sad in this hour. And you'll be happy in the next few. Then you may become angry in the evening, wanting to break things off. Perhaps you will break. But does that mean you're an angry person ? No, it doesn't. You'd be asleep and you'll be laughing with your family again at the breakfast. Emotions will come and go. And one emotion can't define which type of person you are. You might be sad for weeks, if that's what you say. But now that you're saying you've been sad, you must have recovered a little. And you can't be sad for the whole life. You may want to say that you're gonna be sad for the whole life. But no, you "can't" be sad. And it literally means it's impossible to stay unhappy for the whole life if you wanna live. 

      U may get depressed, and stop feeling anything. But I wish I knew a word to describe the feeling that feeling nothing is. U can't be at a constant feeling for the whole life. Sometimes people stuck up on being sad and end up losing themselves. And I literally mean losing themselves. You know this. You know it will go and something new will come. This generation isn't of any adjectives. This generation is of humans and it'll be humans' in the next few generations, unless we becomr friends with aliens and bring them to our planet in future. Be a human. Feel everything, try not to stuck. Keep moving on.

                                            Love, Pran

      

I don't want you to read it

Hey ! I'm back. I was disappeared because I had my final exams. So I had to focus on studies, which was not necessary actually. But it was better to study than dealing with negativity on social media. I deleted everything. And just tried to distract myself from phone. Well, I could have succeeded but as I said it was not necessary. So I decided not to drown in studies completely. I rather started sleeping. Now I sleep more than I used to sleep in a day. I sleep more than I need. Just to stay offline and stay away from phone. That's actually a good way to do so. But no, it makes me less productive. I can't just sleep and waste my days. Oh hey! I'm going to school on a regular basis. And I'm so glad that finally school has become  a place of joy for me. I like to be in school more than staying at home. But I'm still lazy. Less lazier than I was. Lazy that I've stopped learning French for some days. I'll be starting soon. I don't know why I'm writing this now. It's 3 am and I should be probably asleep. But tomorrow is Sunday and Saturday night is about staying up late and scrolling through my phone. Okay, so I see everything has been about me, me and me lately. Sometimes I ask my heart isn't it what I wanted ! And sometimes I'd be like ''why it is how it is." I don't know why but in all these confusions, I'm still happy. Not happy, but I'm not sad or bad. I know I have people and they will remember me when it will be the time. Even though I'm not talking to anyone, strangely being introverted, or even they are not talking to me, I know I will talk to them once again. I learned how to keep balance between my heart and hand. I can deny now. I'm not that sweet anymore. I have changed. This year is all about progress. And I'm glad that I can see some progress, even though it's slow. It took me a month to realize the importance of studies. Okay, while busy in studies, I may lose some friends, I may be called busy, ignorant and many more. But it's okay 😐 please let me heal. Let me recover. Let me be myself. Please let me take time. Now that I'm writing this, I don't know how come I keep thinking about only two persons in my mind. It's because they are my friends, both of them are busy. And I miss them. But it's okay, now I don't wanna talk to anyone. I'm upset that they don't remember me. So let me try to be happy. Please keep distance or I may tell something wrong. I'm sleepy. Good night ✨

                                              Love, Pran

PS. This is the most useless post so far. I don't know why I'm going to post this.